The Buddha Goddess

Life is good.

2009-11-06T20:55:54Z

I now have all my stuff (-1 lamp) at the new place. Trying to figure out where to put everything and might downsize again.

I love my new home and the area I live in. It's very windy here but it doesn't bother me as much. Lightning flashed through the windows and thunder crashed loudly overhead last night. It lasted several minutes. I wonder if bolts are just surveying the planet and atmosphere for something else. What's hiding behind the storm clouds?

Skinny Puppy put on an amazing show the other night. Ogre gives the best hugs. Very warm and friendly. He oozes with compassion. I could just feel an incredible vibe of all things good from him. It was healing to say the least. He gave the small group of us about 20 minutes of his time and was next to me during the whole thing. I wasn't nervous like I thought I would be and I gave him something special that I hope he will remember me by. The whole experience was pretty awesome :)

Here it is my second day off and was looking forward to exploring the neighborhood. Rain is coming down and I don't know if I have proper rainy day footwear for walking around. Another adventure awaits me. I can adapt.

What's going on

2009-10-16T01:51:28Z

Seeking the motivation to begin the downsizing process. I am finally moving to an area I've wanted to live in since my teenage years. I always knew I'd move to Seattle someday. Granted, I am a Seattle resident now but living across the street from Shoreline isn't quite what I had in mind.

The new place is in Fremont, directly across from the zoo. It was the first and only place I looked at. To my surprise, the space for rent was in a 1930's house and not another apartment building. The house is divided up into three sections, so I get the left half of the first floor and my own entry. Due to the nature of the older home charm, I will get to live without the conveniences of a garbage disposal and dishwasher. This doesn't bum me out at all. I think I can do without some of the modern day electronics I have been so accustomed to.

It is also much smaller than the current residence, which is why I need to get crackin' on getting rid of stuff I don't use, want, etc.

I am really looking forward to the walks (and runs hopefully) around the neighborhood. Greenlake is within my walking distance, so that will be another place for adventure. Lots of bars and cute shops are within blocks. Downtown Fremont and Ballard are minutes away. 99 North is a couple streets away which will make commuting a breeze.

The excitement of a "new life" is building up and I'm happy that I'm making this all happen. It's within my power and it always has been. Realizing my strength to make dreams a reality and all I have to do is put my mind to it and take action.

Seeking adventure buddies.

2009-07-22T02:28:21Z

I need to get out and have fun!

As much as I would have done this already, I think I have a fear of doing things alone.

Interests include: anything outdoorsy, hanging out, enjoying life in general.

Help me fill my calendar. :)

Write your congressman...NOW! :D

2009-06-28T23:50:49Z

From NORML.ORG:

Urge Congress To Support Marijuana Law Reform!

NORML is writing you today to remind you to contact your members of Congress in support of marijuana law reform.

Earlier this month, Massachusetts Democrat Barney Frank reintroduced a pair of bills to limit the federal government's authority to arrest and prosecute marijuana offenders.

The first act, House Bill 2835: The Medical Marijuana Patient Protection Act of 2009, would ensure that medical cannabis patients in states that have approved its use will no longer have to fear arrest or prosecution from federal law enforcement agencies. Sixteen members of Congress have signed on as cosponsors to HR 2835, which is now before the House Energy and Commerce Committee.

The second act, House Bill 2943: An Act to Remove Federal Penalties for Personal Use of Marijuana by Responsible Adults, would eliminate federal penalties for the personal possession of up to 100 grams (three and one-half ounces) of cannabis and for the not-for-profit transfer of up to one ounce of pot -- making the prosecutions of these offenses strictly a state matter.

Passage of this act would provide state lawmakers the choice to maintain their current penalties for minor marijuana offenses or eliminate them completely. Lawmakers would also have the option to explore legal alternatives to tax and regulate the adult use and distribution of cannabis free from federal interference. Four members of Congress have signed on as cosponsors to HR 2943, which is now before two separate committees -- The House judiciary Committee, and the House Energy and Commerce Committee.

Now is the time to contact your U.S. Representatives are urge them to support common sense marijuana law reform. Ask your member of Congress to become a cosponsor of these important pieces of legislation.

To write your members of the House in favor of House Bill 2835: The Medical Marijuana Patient Protection Act of 2009, please go here:

http://capwiz.com/norml2/issues/alert/?alertid=13532281

To write your member of the House in favor of House Bill 2943: An Act to Remove Federal Penalties for Personal Use of Marijuana by Responsible Adults, please go here:

http://capwiz.com/norml2/issues/alert/?alertid=13568661

Thanks you for your support and assistance of NORML's federal marijuana law reform efforts.

Sincerely,
The NORML Team

Where I'll hopefully be on 5/28...

2009-05-06T19:13:43Z

Got my ticket and am hoping for a slow end of month so I can have Friday off :)

What I'm having for breakfast...

2009-04-12T18:59:43Z

Sexy beats are delicious indeed!

Well, it's a start...

2009-02-23T20:18:11Z

From NORML.ORG:

NORML Breaking News: California Assemblyman Introduces Legislation To Tax And Regulate Marijuana Like Alcohol

Dear Friend,

Speaking at a landmark press conference today, California Assemblyman Tom Ammiano (D-San Francisco) introduced comprehensive legislation to tax and regulate the commercial production and sale of cannabis in a manner similar to alcohol.

"With the state in the midst of an historic economic crisis, the move towards regulating and taxing marijuana is simply common sense. This legislation would generate much needed revenue for the state, restrict access to only those over 21, end the environmental damage to our public lands from illicit crops, and improve public safety by redirecting law enforcement efforts to more serious crimes", Assemblyman Ammiano said. "California has the opportunity to be the first state in the nation to enact a smart, responsible public policy for the control and regulation of marijuana."

The proposal is the first marijuana legalization bill ever introduced in California.

"It's time for California taxpayers to stop wasting money trying to enforce marijuana prohibition, and to realize the tax benefits from a legal, regulated market instead," said Dale Gieringer, director of California NORML, a sponsor of the bill.

As introduced, Ammiano's measure would allow for the licensed production and sale of cannabis to consumers age 21 and over. Licensed cultivators would pay an excise tax of $50 per ounce of cannabis. In addition, the proposal would impose a sales tax on commercial sales. (Ammiano's proposal would not affect the state's medical marijuana law, allowing patients and caregivers to grow their own medicine.)

If enacted, the measure would raise over $1 billion per year in state revenue, according to an economic analysis by California NORML, available online here: http://www.canorml.org/background/CA_legalization2.html

Ammiano's bill comes at a time of growing public support for legalizing marijuana. A recent Zogby poll reported that nearly six in ten west coast voters support taxing and regulating marijuana like alcohol. Faced with a $40 billion budget deficit, other public officials have joined in endorsing Ammiano's bill, including San Francisco Sheriff Mike Hennessy and Betty Yee, a member of the State Board of Equalization, which oversees collection of sales taxes.

Currently, tens of millions of dollars are paid annually in state and local taxes by licensed distributors of medical marijuana. However, these sales only represent a fraction of the overall statewide marijuana market. "The millions of dollars raised each on the sales of medicinal cannabis is only the tip of the iceberg," Gieringer said. "Kudos to Assemblyman Ammiano for proposing a path-breaking bill that would benefit our economy, safety and freedom by making marijuana a winning proposition for California."

Sincerely,
The NORML Team

Superb music finally acquired.

2009-02-21T17:36:40Z

How else would I have made it through work on Saturday without a 4.5 hour shuffled playlist of ohGr and Skinny Puppy to see me through?

I am in love.

Action Alert!! It's a step in the right direction...

2009-02-08T17:11:48Z

Washington State Senate Considers Decriminalizing Marijuana

Senate Bill 5615 would reclassify minor marijuana possession!!

NORML is pleased to announce that Senate Bill 5615, an act reclassifying the possession of forty grams or less of marijuana from a misdemeanor to a class 2 civil infraction, has been referred to the Senate Judiciary Committee.

This bill has been introduced as a companion bill to HB 1177.

If passed, this proposal would reduce the penalty for minor marijuana possession offenses to a civil fine of no more than $100. Currently, marijuana possession is a crime punishable by a mandatory day in jail, and up to 90, plus a fine of at least $250, and up to $1,000.

According to data provided by the Washington State Institute for Public Policy, enacting this policy would save state taxpayers over $7.5 million annually.

Senate Bill 5615 will be heard by members of the Senate Judiciary Committee Tuesday, February 10, at 10am in Senate hearing room 1.

Please take a moment today to contact your state senator and urge him or her to support SB 5615. If your senator sits on the Senate Judiciary Committee, then it is especially important that he or she hears from you.

Click on the link for information on contacting your state senator and making a difference: http://capwiz.com/norml2/utr/2/?a=12522896&i=91459560&c=

Thanks :)

buzzin' along

2009-01-29T17:58:01Z

The Combichrist show was awesome last night.

The crowd had soo much energy - there needs to be more of that at all the shows I go to. No more standing around, Seattle.

For going to bed late, I feel all chipper and awake. Go me!

Where I'm at physically and financially...Doom, doom, doooom.

2008-11-30T21:23:06Z

It's Sunday and I am kicking back with a small bowl of tortilla rounds, TJ's salsa and a can of coke. Granted, the chips don't have globs of melted cheese strewn across them like yesterday, but these are the things that get me in trouble when I'm trying to shed the pounds.

I was hoping to be at least halfway there by the NIN show next Sunday. That was a realistic goal weeks ago and now I will have to come up with a new one that keeps a healthy weight loss rate in mind.

When I joined WW a couple years ago, it was brand new concept and kept me interested the duration of my weight loss period. Now that I've been there, it will take more incentive to keep me around. When I attended the weekly meetings, I received praise and cheap tokens (stickers, magnets, etc.) that celebrated my efforts. It sounds cheesy, but those things did have a positive effect on my progress. Since I'm a Lifetime member now, I can attend the meetings but I am not recognized for any weight loss.

I'm thinking about coming up with my own incentive program. I will still use the WW system for some sort of guidance, but I will make eating right and exercising a part of my life that earns points towards kick-ass stuff. I want to tie the points to my finances, requiring me to sock away "real" money to save for the things I earn points towards.

To sum it up - I eat too much, exercise too little and spend too much money on things that are very, very dispensable (I spend around $300 on dining out). Because of these current habits, I am fattening up and not saving for the more important things in life. I feel shitty for these actions and wish I would just get off my butt and actually do something about it.

Grr.

2008-10-29T03:52:24Z

Going through a major nicotine withdrawal.

Instead of having a cigarette today, I have managed to:

a) get all emotional to the point of crying at work and leave less than an hour after clocking in to go home and not return to 3PM.
b) cry all fucking day in the meantime. (you should see how puffy my eyes are).
c) drive all aggressively, while yelling and flipping many people off. Took some corners straight out of a car chase scene here and there.
d) have no patience.
e) eat a lot of bad stuff and put back on the weight i lost last week.
f) feel like fucking hell.

I hate smoking. I hate quitting smoking even more. It sucks so bad.

Grr!

>: (

One of my favorites...

2008-09-28T23:34:36Z

BONDAGE

Where is my sanctuary, where is my sanctuary?
Farthest away from where I stand.
Bound in these chains, with a lock without key,
Knees raw and bloody - the result from your command.

Do you want me here, do you want me there?
Anywhere you want me, I shall be;
For I have no soul - you hold my strings;
And from all this pain you cause me, I feel such a release.

What shall I say, where shall I lay?
Everything is in your hands, decide this for me;
For I have no mind of my own, I am a puppet;
My every move directed by the tainted hands of society.

What shall I believe, what shall I think?
Forced to read books without any words;
On my knees worshipping a god who is dead;
And there is no forgiveness, I deserve my just reward.

What shall I do, where shall I go?
I don't believe in Christ, so therefore I shall die;
Killed by the hands of God's children;
Although I find myself forever looking onto an empty sky.

Just want to share...

2008-08-15T06:03:28Z

I feel wonderful. I feel at peace.

A beautiful feeling indeed :)

Something to think about..

2008-08-13T07:18:34Z

This report was presented at the New York Commission hearing on May 11, 1991.

http://deoxy.org/wc/wc-consp.htm

Good News for the day...

2008-07-30T19:31:54Z

Wednesday, July 30, 2008: At a press conference held this morning, members of Congress called on their fellow lawmakers to remove all federal penalties that criminalize the possession and use of marijuana by adults.

“To those who say that the government should not be encouraging the smoking of marijuana, my response is that I completely agree,” said Representative Barney Frank (D-MA). “But it is a great mistake to divide all human activity into two categories: those that are criminally prohibited, and those that are encouraged. In a free society, there must be a very considerable zone of activity between those two poles in which people are allowed to make their own choices as long as they are not impinging on the rights, freedom, or property of others. I believe … criminalizing choices that adults make because we think they are unwise ones, when the choices involved have no negative effect on the rights of others, is not appropriate in a free society.”

Rep. Frank, along with co-sponsors Rep. Barbara Lee (D-CA) and Lacy Clay (D-MO), urged lawmakers to support HR 5843, An Act To Remove Federal Penalties for the Personal Use of Marijuana by Responsible Adults, which would eliminate federal penalties for possession of up to 100 grams of marijuana, and for the not-for-profit transfer of up to one ounce of marijuana. Other co-sponsors of the measure include Rep. Tammy Baldwin (D-WI); Rep. Earl Blumenauer (D-OR); Rep. Zoe Lofgren (D-CA); Rep. Jim McDermott (D-WA) and Rep. Ron Paul (R-TX).

This proposal reflects the basic recommendations of the National Commission on Marijuana and Drug Abuse (aka the Shafer Commission) in its groundbreaking report to Congress in 1972 titled Marihuana: A Signal of Misunderstanding.

“There is absolutely nothing wrong with the responsible use of marijuana by adults and this should be of no interest or concern to the government,” said NORML Executive Director Allen St. Pierre. “It makes no sense to continue to treat nearly half of all Americans as criminals. “

“I am a 43-year-old man, a graduate of the University of Massachusetts, I pay my taxes and, like millions of other Americans, I occasionally smoke marijuana. I cannot for the life of me understand why anyone would wish to treat me like a criminal, based on my responsible use of marijuana. It is time we stopped arresting responsible marijuana smokers, and HR 5843 would do that under federal law.”

This is the first federal marijuana decriminalization bill to be introduced in Congress since 1978, and reflects the changing public attitudes that no longer support treating responsible marijuana smokers like criminals. According to a nationwide Time/CNN poll, three out of four Americans now favor a fine only, and no jail, for adults who possess or use small amounts of marijuana.

Each year in this country we arrest more and more of our citizens on marijuana charges. In 2006, the last year for which the data are available, we arrested 830,000 Americans on marijuana charges, and 88 percent of those arrests were for personal possession and use, not trafficking. They were otherwise law-abiding citizens who smoke marijuana.

Since 1965, a total of nearly 20 million Americans - predominantly young people under the age of 30 -- have been arrested on marijuana charges; more than 11 million marijuana arrests just since 1990.

Currently 47 percent of all drug arrests in this country are for marijuana, and another marijuana smoker is arrested every 38 seconds. Police arrest more people on marijuana charges each year than the total number of arrestees for all violent crimes combined, including murder, rape, robbery and aggravated assault.

As President Jimmy Carter said in a message to Congress in 1977, “Penalties against drug use should not be more damaging to the individual than the use of the drug itself. Nowhere is this more clear than in the laws against the possession of marijuana in private for personal use.”

For More Information, Contact:
NORML Executive Director Allen St. Pierre; allen@norml.org; 202-483-5500
or Legal Counsel Keith Stroup: keith@norml.org; 202-483-5500

An Update, yo!

2008-07-24T01:14:42Z

Maui is awesome. It was just the break I needed. I had a blast. :)
Life is more mellow these days. I feel like I'm in a stable relationship.
Work is getting easier. I get to redesign Ops. Now my creativity can come into play and I look forward to the opportunity and challenge.

Soon to be Ops Manager (if not already).

I am quite content with my current state of affairs. Everything in my life seems beautiful and in-place.

And now I get to snuggle with my favorite person. Blessed day.

Discovery of the Day #1

2008-07-19T17:23:11Z

Feeling divine :)

2008-07-19T16:28:36Z

Too bad they didn't make a proper video for this one:

Lyrics behind the cut ...

What is that vitalizing sound
Calling me
In my head
Repeatedly
What is that visionary sight
Before my eyes
So prominent
So mesmorizing turbulent

You've got a hold on me
Your ingenuity
Seems to be driving me down on my knees
The force you generate
You reinvigorate
Your body talks and overstates

Well I'm already drawn
Close to the divine
Intoxicating images are rushing through my mind
Embodiment of sin
Has kindled me within
Sensation seems to multiply
They're building up inside

Cutting through the night
Radiating light
I've seen you move the crowd
I know what you're about
The stories I have heard
The talk about excess
I know what people say
But surely you impress

Charismatic pill
You elevated sun
Vanity and pride
Added into one
A universal force
An automatic high
A thing I can't control
No matter how I try

What have you done to me
This candid chemistry
Emotions running over me
And when you arch your back
Just with a stare like that
Well it's natural to interact

Well I'm not holding back
Ready to commence
Caught up in your blizzard
So confusing and intense
Synergy of two
Energy gone wild
See the stars align
To spell your name out in the sky
Never seen a sight
So fascinated by it
A symetry between
Dirty and pristine
Calling out so loud
Beautiful and true
Mystery about
Everything you do

Charismatic drug
You elevated sun
Vanity and pride
Added into one
A universal force
An atonomic high
A thing I can't control
No matter how I try

This electricity
Injected into me
Emotions running over me
And when you're getting close
You touch my innermost
A feeling deep inside me knows

Wonders of deligth
Cutting through the night
Known you got it all
I can't do without
Burning in my veins
Ripping through my soul
I'll never be the same
A secret can't be told

Charismatic pill
You elevated sun
Vanity and pride
Added into one
A universal force
An autonomic high
A thing I can't control
No matter how I try

On the other hand, check out their other stuff:

Having a beautiful day swimming around in my mind. Discovery is in order for today as I am feeling a strong connecting energy to everything.

It's wonderful to be me right now :)

Tomorrow, I will be 2,641 miles away :)

2008-06-29T18:46:16Z

Woke up this morning to do laundry and someone left their clothes in the washer and dryer. Now, if its who I think it is, those clothes will probably still be there in the morning. I hate touching other people's stuff, but not everyone here shares a sense of "Be a good neighbor! Take care of your shit so that others can use it too..." Morons!

The neighbor across the hallway is also storing her stuff in the hall. Its a pile of junk that's starting to smell REALLY bad. It's been like that for a month (or two??) and I have been coming up with ways to address this issue. Leave a note on the door? Haul said junk to Goodwill? Kick it all over the place because its in the fucking way no matter what? Some people are just clueless when it comes to courtesy.

I'm kind of nervous because my flight leaves tomorrow. No magical extra week to get ready is going to pop up now. I'm screwed with this last-minute-planning mentality. I still have to get more clothes and a bathing suit!

I guess I will just have to wing it and enjoy my 7 days in Maui and forget about everything for the week. I will bring my notebooks and drawing books so that the artist and writer has something to use if she decides to come out.

I am happy that I get to escape. I think that once I am up in the air and realize that I am on my way to vacation, I will get all giddy 'n shit. My dad used to take me on roadtrips when I was younger, so I know I am capable of tapping into Vacation Mode.

I do hope that while I'm off in a faraway land, the traveling bug bites me hard and begins a lust for wanting more.

My latest baby...

2008-06-14T04:53:41Z

Just added this to my collection:

http://www.notebookreview.com/assets/12256.jpg

Got it for an awesome deal, too! :)

Just blabbin' :)

2008-06-08T15:48:58Z

..I have enhanced my brain..

Check this out:

I was just rambling to my love about some childhood memories and remembered a story my mom told me when I was really young. It was about her pet hamster eating its babies when a small fire broke out in the bedroom. I remember thinking "what a selfish mommy hamster". I revisited the thought and wanted to find out the scientific reasons. A google search produced this question and answer page:

http://en.allexperts.com/q/Wild-Animals-705/Animals-kill-young.htm

Interesting topic. I wonder if there is a gene that these species share, humans included. Maybe these species were designed with this gene since they were the ones most capable of overpopulating? Rodents, cats, dogs, US.

If so, that will make us the only species to not accept this thread of natural design. Somewhere in our evolution it was decided that it is "wrong" to take the life of a child, at whatever stage in development. A hamster won't question eating its young. When did our conscious start telling us as a species that this was wrong? On our current path, we will overpopulate the planet and out-species until there are not enough resources to take care of us. And the output of this overpopulated planet will kill the atmosphere and strip its crust of any sign of a once natural world. As a species, we have ignored the natural design that will allow us to live and die and still maintain a balance on the planet.

Gets the hamster wheels spinning in my brain..

Birthday Wishes...

2008-05-28T18:07:34Z

Wishing a Happy Birthday to the lovely nobodylkl!

Hope you have a wonderful day!

:)

Hmm...

2008-05-17T02:35:24Z

Thinking about dancing tonight...

Who is going to be out?

gush

2008-05-13T17:10:02Z

I am so thankful I have found someone to spend life with.

There is no need to search. Just a matter of growing and maintaining, tending to this relationship like its a sacred garden.

I am relieved. I am happy. I feel like I can finally relax. We have each other's backs and best interests in mind.

And to think that I at one point in life felt like I was doomed to be alone forever.. :)